I will never be the fun one.
You know that carefree friend you have who’s always smiling and always makes people laugh, even when she’s having a bad day? Wait, does she even have bad days? Yeah, those people are great. They probably get invited to a lot of parties, but they’re not me.
Creating a playlist of songs that will comfort people in their grief for my Where Did My Sweet Grandma Go? launch party really calmed my anxious heart.
The final stage of grief lasts forever. My mother has been dead for 10 years. But I’ve been grieving her loss for over 15 years.
I hate being a member of the Dead Moms Club.
I hate paying the lifetime membership dues.
I hate the grief.
I hate the heartache.
And I hate the loneliness.
I’m entering another new year without my mother beside me. Another new year without her love. Another new year without her support. And another new year without her encouragement.
