Embracing Biblical Motherhood

I used to hold onto everything as tightly as I could–material possessions, places, talents, jobs, relationships. I attempted to maintain control, terrified I might let something slip through the cracks.

I strove for perfection and grieved each and every change, failure, and loss as a sign of my own powerlessness.

Then, as I became a wife and mother, I watched early onset Alzheimer’s disease take my mother from me in slow motion. For years, I continued to fight God for control through her decline. By the time she died, I’d learned that nothing I have actually belongs to me.

My loved ones, my possessions, my gifts, and my time on this Earth are all the Lord’s, to grant as he sees fit. I understand this now, and yet as a mother I find it especially hard to accept that my own children are on loan.

How can it be that my two beautiful little girls, who grew inside my body, are not mine to keep? I know that they belong to a heavenly Father who loves and provides for them in ways I could never imagine. He has only entrusted them to me for nurturing, discipline, and instruction for a short time.

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