I Miss the World that Made Sense because It Included My Mom

I miss the world that made sense because it included my late mom.

I miss the world where my mother went to events.

And I miss the world where my mother had friends.

I miss the world that made sense because it included my late mom.

My dad recently attended his 50th high school reunion.

I recently attended my 20th high school reunion.

That same week, one of my mother’s best friends from high school posted about their upcoming 50th reunion on Facebook.

And it gutted me.

I miss the world that made sense because it included my mom.

This reunion is one more thing my mother is missing.

It’s one more thing she won’t attend.

And it’s one more thing my mom will never do because of early onset Alzheimer’s disease.

It’s one more way for my mother to not tell her stories.

It’s one more way for people to miss her presence.

And it’s one more way to remember that my mother’s been gone for over a decade.

I miss the world that made sense because it included my late mom.

A version of this post was originally published December 30, 2022.