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Grief and Mental Health

Why Birthdays Feel Different when Your Mother is Dead

Birthdays feel different when your mother is dead. No one makes you feel special the way that she did. Birthdays feel different when your mother is dead. No one starts your morning with a phone call the way that she did. And no one buys you a dozen pink roses the way that she did. […]

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Grief and Mental Health

If Home Is Where My Mom Is, then My Home is Now in Heaven

If home is where my mom is, then my home is now in heaven. I never get to go home again. Not on Earth, anyways. They say, “Home is where your mom is.” Well, it’s true. My mother died after a decade-long battle with early onset Alzheimer’s disease in 2013. If home is where my […]

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Faith Grief and Mental Health

If Your Heart Is Absolutely Broken This Christmas Season, I Get It

Christmas and grief are a tough combination. Maybe this is your first Christmas season since you’ve lost a parent. Maybe someone close to you is sick, dying, or struggling with substance abuse. Or maybe you’ve lost a child, a spouse or a sibling. Maybe you’ve lost your job. Whatever the reason, you are struggling to […]

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Alzheimer's Disease and Dementia Grief and Mental Health

My Mother Left Her Mark on Everything She Touched Before She Died

My mother left her mark on everything she touched before she died. She’s been gone for almost a decade. Early onset Alzheimer’s disease took her from me. But I still find signs of my mother everywhere I look. My mother left her mark on everything she touched before she died. I still find her handwriting […]

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Grief and Mental Health

I Don’t Get to Do Anything with My Mom Anymore because She’s Dead

I still feel jealous when I see women my age hanging out with their mothers. And I still feel angry when I hear women my age complaining about their moms.* These feelings hit me especially hard around Mother’s Day. I don’t get to hang out with my mom anymore because she’s dead. Unfortunately, I don’t […]